My Recent Struggle

Hello everyone,

I apologize that I haven’t posted in a very long time. After college life just seems to get in the way of all the little things you want to do rather then have to do.

I am writing today because I have experienced the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our miracle baby earlier this fall. After turning my life upside down to make sure everything would be perfect for our growing family we found out our baby had stopped developing. There was nothing we could do but cry and morn this little miracle that we are never going to meet.

I waited weeks to have a natural miscarriage because I didn’t think I could mentally deal with the idea of surgery. It turned out that my body wasn’t able to detect that the baby had stoped developing and I had to go through the procedure regardless of how hard it would be. I prayed for so long to become pregnant and I knew walking into the hospital that day that when I woke up I would no longer be pregnant. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Early last year my husband and I were told that we would have very little time to have our own child and after trying for so long it seemed like nothing would work. I finally gave up hope on having my own child, I started focusing on a career and looked forward to the day that we could afford to adopt or find a surrogate to bless us with a completed family.

Then this miracle happened and I can’t begin to tell you how much it filled my life and my heart with happiness. I would have moved mountains for this little baby. And although I know there was nothing I could do to prevent this from happening I feel as if I have failed my family my husband and myself.

I know one day I will have the perfect family wether that be by giving birth or adoption. But the sadness this has caused has been the hardest thing I have had to endure.

I am writing this today because I have felt very alone in this time and I hope none of you ever experience this sadness. But if you ever find yourself in this horrible situation know that you are not alone. So many women go through this but we are too embarrassed or sad or heartbroken to talk about it. This has not been easy for me to write but if I can help one person feel as if they are not alone it was well worth my tears.

I am very lucky to have a strong support system of family and friends who love me. But the truth is not many people know what to say or what to do to help. It’s a very hard thing to understand if you have not been through this yourself.

I love you all, thank you for continuing to be a line of love and support!

Thank you to all my friends and family who have showed me all there love and support. You mean the world to me.

Xoxo

Michelle

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Dress sizes can’t define, don’t let the world decide what’s beautiful

Hello Everyone,

I want to thank you all for the overwhelming amount of E-mails I received after my last post! They were all filled with kindness and love; I really have missed you all!!

Today I am writing to you all because of one email I got in particular! I received a very emotional and heartfelt letter from a high school sophomore.

She told me that she has always been struggling with her weight but has always considered herself to be beautiful! Until high school when people began to pick on her because of her size. She goes on to tell me that these girls have not only been embarrassing her but also have started to change how she sees herself and views her own body.

While reading this Email, I was almost in tears; no one should feel this way about themselves, and when these feelings are caused by the cruelty and ignorance of others, it is just so sad and it breaks my heart!

Now I can say that you shouldn’t listen to the cruel words of others, and only you can define how you feel about yourself, but in reality, this is almost impossible to do! Our peers play such a big part in our everyday life that it is so hard to ignore their opinions.

The best advice I can give someone in this position is to be strong, understand that you are beautiful and understand that there is a cruelty in this world that is not fair. Be the bigger person and don’t forget to put yourself first! Love yourself, know your worth and beauty, and truly love yourselves!

 

Love you all,

Michelle

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Hello World

Hello Everyone,

I must apologize for my extended absence! I must say I have been a very busy girl, most recently I have started grad school!

I was offered a full assistantship! Allowing me to go to school as well as get a great experience of working as a Teaching Assistant, enabling me to teach classes, and do some real world hands on research!

I just finished my first week, and so far I have no complaints, it is so nice being back to school.

Me and Tyler also through a celebration of our marriage, a second reception! As many of you know our wedding ceremony was planned ver quickly and even though it was fantastic it was very nice to have a bigger party that all our friends and family could attend!

It’s been a crazy and fun summer!

I am hoping to get back to you all more regularly; I am going to make an honest effort! I miss all of my web friends! Let me know if there is anything you want me to touch upon in the next few days!

Talk to you all soon!

Lots of love,

Michelle

 

A New Adventure

Hello Everyone!

I hope you all enjoyed your Friday!

Today I want to tell you all about something super exciting! I have just accepted a new job. The job involves a lot of research and data entry so it is perfect for a nerd like me! It is close to our new home and the people there seem amazing!

I know many of you have been struggling to find the perfect job and believe me I know it is hard but hang in there keep trying, it really will pay off and you will make it through!

I was always worried about my major, So many times I wondered if I was going to end up with a useless degree because my major was so specific and uncommon. But here I am with my second job involving the skills I have learned with my anthropology degree! (the first being my work at the hospital)

Well, I just wanted to share some good news and remind you all that if you stick with it and follow your dreams you will find the right place in this world!

Love you all,

Michelle

 

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SELF LOVE

Hello Everyone!
I hope you enjoyed your weekend!
Today I want to talk to you all about self love! I’m sure you have all heard you must truly love yourself before you can love someone else. Trust me, that is 100% true.
Everyone sees flaws within themselves but we love others with their flaws so why not love ourselves as well!
I hope you all learn to accept everything about yourself, learn to love it, and learn to love you!
Love you all,
Michelle
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Don’t Be A Catfish

Hello Everyone,

I hope your Wednesday has been going great!

Today I decided to binge watch Cat Fish with my free day. I have to say I am an addict when it comes to this show and although many times the show follows a very similar process and outcome I still enjoy all the episodes I watch.

The show has made me realize how hard it is for people who can’t accept who they are. People go to extraordinary lengths when they feel uncomfortable with themselves. This show is filled with people who pretend to be someone else to start a relationship online.

The truly sad part of this show is the fact that most of these people are wonderful people who would make great girlfriends or boyfriends but they have so little self esteem they pretend to be someone they are not.

Some of these people are overweight, some have been bullied in the past, and others are too shy to communicate as themselves. Sure some people do this for devious reasons but many people just need more confidence and to find love for themselves.

Even though many people do not wish to hurt anyone most of the time things have gone too far and people are being hurt.

I hope that if any of you struggle so badly with self esteem you seek help and acceptance. Everyone deserves to be loved for who they are,  you shouldn’t have to pretend to be someone else to feel loved.

I hope you all no you you are worth loving. Check out tonight’s Catfish special on MTV tonight.

Love you all,
Michelle

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Inspiring Each Other

Hello Everyone!

Happy Thursday! Where I am from it just turned Thursday! So I apologize that my post is at an odd time!

I just wanted to write a quick post about something exciting me and Tyler decided to collaborate on!

Its called Inspiring Each Other!

We will be opening a second blog which will deal with our life as a couple what we are up to what we like to do all things us! We will also be given relationship advice quite often so make sure you check it out!

We will have an Instagram account to go along with it that we will update quite often!

@inspiringeachother

We are taking a trip to the cape this weekend for a memorial service for a family member of Tyler’s! Make sure you check in on both the Instagram and blog for updates!

We Love you all,

Michelle & Tyler

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Becoming YOU

Hello Everyone,Happy Tuesday! Today I want to talk to you all about becoming you! 

We experience so much in a lifetime! So much hurt, so much joy, and everything in between! It would be so easy to say that we wish we could eliminate all the bad and get rid of all the metaphoric bruises but so much of ourselves is made up of the good and bad experiences.

Everyone has heard the phrase everything happens for a reason or what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger… both are absolutely correct! 

Think about how certain experiences have changed your view on the world! How maybe an accident makes you think twice when taking a right on red or how a bad date made you hate a particular movie or restaurant! All these little things have shaped you and guide you day by day through life! 

Maybe you once were a very trusting person but experienced pain from putting your trust in the wrong person. You may think twice before your next leap of trust but maybe this change will perfect your future! 

We become who we are through a life time of experiences! You may be a completely different person today then you were a year ago and this may not be a bad thing! 

We need to embrace our mistakes and experiences and allow them to effect us but never stop us! You are in charge of your own life, learn but never be afraid to live! 

These things make you you… so don’t wish away the past! 

Love you all,

Michelle

  

Ch-ch-changes

Hello Everyone!
So it’s back to reality for me and Tyler today! He went to work first thing this morning and I went grocery shopping. 
It’s 40 degrees were we live which is a big change from the 90 degrees we were getting used to! 
But anyway today I want to talk to you all about life changes! (If you don’t get my title it’s a song from the 80’s) Change can be a hard thing to accept! But it’s always going to happen! 
If life stayed the same everyday it would be so boring! I understand that not all changes are good and can be very hard to come to terms with like loosing a loved one or a break up but in these situations it’s good to remember the good times! It’s amazing what time can heal you just need to make an effort to focus on the good things!
Other changes may just seem bad because it’s different! But these changes can be good! Just stay positive and make the best of these new adventures! 
Change is a scary thing but sometimes it’s a great thing! 
Love you all,
Michelle 

  

Happy Memories 

Hello Everyone,

I hope you enjoyed your weekend!

As many of you know I will be leaving for Disney tomorrow! 

So today I want to talk to you all about anticipation! Sometimes life seems to be waiting for a different moment! You can’t wait for a vacation, graduation, your wedding, or whatever exciting thing you are looking forward to! 

But what about the moments we are living now! I am a firm believer that we should make the best out of all life’s adventures so don’t just sit back and wait for your next big adventure enjoy all of the little ones on the way! 

And when you finally get to a big adventure make the best of it and take time to sit back and just absorb a memory! 

A lifetime is filled with so much happiness and magic! Sometimes we need to just step back and enjoy these moments… Before they become just happy memories! 

Don’t ever forget that the best thing about memories is making them! 

I love you all,

Michelle