My Recent Struggle

Hello everyone,

I apologize that I haven’t posted in a very long time. After college life just seems to get in the way of all the little things you want to do rather then have to do.

I am writing today because I have experienced the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our miracle baby earlier this fall. After turning my life upside down to make sure everything would be perfect for our growing family we found out our baby had stopped developing. There was nothing we could do but cry and morn this little miracle that we are never going to meet.

I waited weeks to have a natural miscarriage because I didn’t think I could mentally deal with the idea of surgery. It turned out that my body wasn’t able to detect that the baby had stoped developing and I had to go through the procedure regardless of how hard it would be. I prayed for so long to become pregnant and I knew walking into the hospital that day that when I woke up I would no longer be pregnant. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Early last year my husband and I were told that we would have very little time to have our own child and after trying for so long it seemed like nothing would work. I finally gave up hope on having my own child, I started focusing on a career and looked forward to the day that we could afford to adopt or find a surrogate to bless us with a completed family.

Then this miracle happened and I can’t begin to tell you how much it filled my life and my heart with happiness. I would have moved mountains for this little baby. And although I know there was nothing I could do to prevent this from happening I feel as if I have failed my family my husband and myself.

I know one day I will have the perfect family wether that be by giving birth or adoption. But the sadness this has caused has been the hardest thing I have had to endure.

I am writing this today because I have felt very alone in this time and I hope none of you ever experience this sadness. But if you ever find yourself in this horrible situation know that you are not alone. So many women go through this but we are too embarrassed or sad or heartbroken to talk about it. This has not been easy for me to write but if I can help one person feel as if they are not alone it was well worth my tears.

I am very lucky to have a strong support system of family and friends who love me. But the truth is not many people know what to say or what to do to help. It’s a very hard thing to understand if you have not been through this yourself.

I love you all, thank you for continuing to be a line of love and support!

Thank you to all my friends and family who have showed me all there love and support. You mean the world to me.

Xoxo

Michelle

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There’s A Little Turkey In All Of Us

Hey Everyone,

Happy Monday, I know Mondays are typically nothing to be excited but I still hope you all had a great day!

It’s almost Thanksgiving here in America and you we can officially let the Holiday season begin! Just like most of the world, The holidays are always my favorite time of the year. The magic is everywhere people literally sing in the streets!

The best part about this time of the year is that you get to spend it with family and friends and the people who mean the most to you!

To me, Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because you get to express your love and thankfulness for each other! Its a time to reflect on the year and think about who and what you are thankful for. It’s not all about Turkey even though who could resist that much food!

Usually, I would post something like this on the actual holiday but for me, it was one of those Mondays I needed a little bit of optimism and thoughtfulness! Since this post is early I hope you all take the next few days to think about who and what you are thankful for!

For example:

I am thankful for every single one of my followers and readers, not only do I feel your love and support on a daily basis but you have become such good friends! Regardless of if we have ever met or ever will meet you all have become a huge part of my life! I wish you all a happy and healthy Thanksgiving!

XOXO,

Michelle

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Dress sizes can’t define, don’t let the world decide what’s beautiful

Hello Everyone,

I want to thank you all for the overwhelming amount of E-mails I received after my last post! They were all filled with kindness and love; I really have missed you all!!

Today I am writing to you all because of one email I got in particular! I received a very emotional and heartfelt letter from a high school sophomore.

She told me that she has always been struggling with her weight but has always considered herself to be beautiful! Until high school when people began to pick on her because of her size. She goes on to tell me that these girls have not only been embarrassing her but also have started to change how she sees herself and views her own body.

While reading this Email, I was almost in tears; no one should feel this way about themselves, and when these feelings are caused by the cruelty and ignorance of others, it is just so sad and it breaks my heart!

Now I can say that you shouldn’t listen to the cruel words of others, and only you can define how you feel about yourself, but in reality, this is almost impossible to do! Our peers play such a big part in our everyday life that it is so hard to ignore their opinions.

The best advice I can give someone in this position is to be strong, understand that you are beautiful and understand that there is a cruelty in this world that is not fair. Be the bigger person and don’t forget to put yourself first! Love yourself, know your worth and beauty, and truly love yourselves!

 

Love you all,

Michelle

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Hello World

Hello Everyone,

I must apologize for my extended absence! I must say I have been a very busy girl, most recently I have started grad school!

I was offered a full assistantship! Allowing me to go to school as well as get a great experience of working as a Teaching Assistant, enabling me to teach classes, and do some real world hands on research!

I just finished my first week, and so far I have no complaints, it is so nice being back to school.

Me and Tyler also through a celebration of our marriage, a second reception! As many of you know our wedding ceremony was planned ver quickly and even though it was fantastic it was very nice to have a bigger party that all our friends and family could attend!

It’s been a crazy and fun summer!

I am hoping to get back to you all more regularly; I am going to make an honest effort! I miss all of my web friends! Let me know if there is anything you want me to touch upon in the next few days!

Talk to you all soon!

Lots of love,

Michelle

 

Be Happy Be Bright Be You

Hello Everyone!
I hope you are all having a great weekend! Today I want to talk to everyone about positivity!
I talk a lot about staying optimistic and positive for you own well being and mental health but I think there are many other great things about being optimistic as well!
For one, everyone wants to be around  happy people! In the work place,at school, basically any where! People want to be around positivity! Looking at life through rose colored glasses is a great trait and people like to be around those who aren’t downers and who do not focus on bad things!
Sometimes things happen and can make the whole world seem bad. Sometimes you may not be so optimistic and that’s okay too! We all have those days. But in general I think looking at the glass half full makes you feel better about  your everyday life!
I hope you all decide to put on those rose colored glasses every now and then and smile!
Love you all,
Michelle

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Ch-ch-changes

Hello Everyone!
So it’s back to reality for me and Tyler today! He went to work first thing this morning and I went grocery shopping. 
It’s 40 degrees were we live which is a big change from the 90 degrees we were getting used to! 
But anyway today I want to talk to you all about life changes! (If you don’t get my title it’s a song from the 80’s) Change can be a hard thing to accept! But it’s always going to happen! 
If life stayed the same everyday it would be so boring! I understand that not all changes are good and can be very hard to come to terms with like loosing a loved one or a break up but in these situations it’s good to remember the good times! It’s amazing what time can heal you just need to make an effort to focus on the good things!
Other changes may just seem bad because it’s different! But these changes can be good! Just stay positive and make the best of these new adventures! 
Change is a scary thing but sometimes it’s a great thing! 
Love you all,
Michelle 

  

What’s in my husband’s carryon? (Guest Post)

Hi Everyone!

I hope you’re all doing well! In preparation for our honeymoon trip to Disney, we’re packing our carry-ons! Michelle did hers already, and she asked me if I wanted to do mine so I thought I would!

I travel a bit lighter than Michelle in most cases, but there are still some essentials that I need to take on the plane with me (In my lovely Marvel backpack).

First, I have my book to keep me entertained while on the plane. This is an absolute essential because more often than not you can find me reading! Currently, I’m reading Battle for Honor: Rebirth. I’ll recommend this to anyone who has a taste for fantasy books, it’s extremely well written and one of my favorite books so far!

Along with my book, I have my electronics. I have a phone charger because I never know when I’m going to need to charge my phone. I also have my Disney wristband so I don’t have to carry a credit card or anything else with me in the park. I’ve always liked this because i have a terrible habit of leaving things somewhere and forgetting where I leave them. I also have my Apple headphones for music, and just in case I don’t have an outlet to charge my phone I have my portable charger made by DYNEX! This thing works awesome and has saved my butt more times than i can count when I’m traveling for for work.

I have my sunglasses By Kreed so I’m not blinded by the sun, and some tissues Star Wars just in case!

But that’s what’s in my carry-on! Like I said, I don’t usually need much = but these are what I consider essential when traveling!

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What’s In My Carry On

Hello Everyone,

I have 5 days until I leave for Disney! As you might be able to tell I am so excited to be starting this adventure. Not only is this our spring break trip but our honeymoon! We went on a weekend trip to Connecticut right after our wedding so that we could save the money and find a time to go to Disney.
Well now it is less then a week away and am getting all gitty just thinking about the morning we leave!
Today I packed my carry on filled with all the things I will try to entertain myself with. So here is what is in my Darth Vader carry on:

  • My hot pink HP laptop (so I can keep up with all of you)
  • Yes cucumber face wipes (always need to refresh after a day of travel)
  • My Vera Bradley wallet (it is the perfect size to keep everything you need for travel)
  • A mini hair brush by precision beauty (great quality and perfect size)
  • My notebook and calendar book (work on ideas for the blog, of course!)
  • A new pair of Skullcandy headphones (the only headphones I use)
  • My favorite YBF lipstick (Check them out, I love the shade pumpkin spice)
  • Star Wars tissues (to go with my Vader bag, of course)
  • Iphone charger (can’t travel with out power)
  • A fun pair of sunglasses (designed by Merona)
  • The book A night in with Audrey Hepburn by Lucy Holliday ( loving it so far, book review after the vacation)
  • Of course my Disney Magic Band so we can jump straight to the magic when we land in Orlando

Love you all,

Michelle

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Fly with me to Neverland

Hello Everyone!

I hope you all are enjoying this gorgeous Sunday morning! 

I wanted to let you know of something that I am extremely excited about! 

In just 15 days Tyler and I will be boarding a plane to Disney world! And I’m taking you all with me!

I will be blogging everyday about what we have seen, what we have done, and  basically my blog will be filled with magic for a week! 

I will be covering everything from what rides we go on to where we plan to eat! 

I hope you all join me for a week of Disney Magic! My first post will begin the 13th with the prep and the last post will be on the 19th with our flight home! 

I’m so excited to share this adventure with all of you!

Love you all,

Michelle

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Some People Are Worth Melting For

Hello Everyone,

I hope you all are enjoying your weekend so far! Today I want to write to you about friendship!

My mother always told me to pick my friends wisely. They are one of the biggest influences you will have in life! They are people who can help you by encouraging you to feel and be the best you can be. But they are also people who could convince you to do stupid things or lower your self esteem.

To me this was really important I believe that I did pick my friends wisely! My friends are people who are supportive and optimistic. They are always there when you need them and in return you need to always there when they need you.

I have been best friends with Jill since 1st grade. She is one of the most important people in my life and I have no doubt that she will always be my best friend.

I may have only been 6 years old but I understood the importance of friendship and how picking a good friend could help me in life! Jill has been through everything with me from first grade through my wedding day! I know she will be there to help me celebrate graduating college just as I will be there to help her celebrate! She will be one of the first people to hold my child one day. That is the best part of having a childhood friend grow with you! They become like family because they have always been there and always will be.

I hope you all realize the importance of friendship and that it really is not about quantity but quality. You choose your friends and let them into your life make sure you surround yourself with people who will help pick you up when you need it and will always be there during the fun and the not so fun times!  One thing to remember… if you can fill one hand with true friends you are extremely wealthy!

Friends are important so pick them wisely!

Love you all,

Michelle