My Recent Struggle

Hello everyone,

I apologize that I haven’t posted in a very long time. After college life just seems to get in the way of all the little things you want to do rather then have to do.

I am writing today because I have experienced the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our miracle baby earlier this fall. After turning my life upside down to make sure everything would be perfect for our growing family we found out our baby had stopped developing. There was nothing we could do but cry and morn this little miracle that we are never going to meet.

I waited weeks to have a natural miscarriage because I didn’t think I could mentally deal with the idea of surgery. It turned out that my body wasn’t able to detect that the baby had stoped developing and I had to go through the procedure regardless of how hard it would be. I prayed for so long to become pregnant and I knew walking into the hospital that day that when I woke up I would no longer be pregnant. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Early last year my husband and I were told that we would have very little time to have our own child and after trying for so long it seemed like nothing would work. I finally gave up hope on having my own child, I started focusing on a career and looked forward to the day that we could afford to adopt or find a surrogate to bless us with a completed family.

Then this miracle happened and I can’t begin to tell you how much it filled my life and my heart with happiness. I would have moved mountains for this little baby. And although I know there was nothing I could do to prevent this from happening I feel as if I have failed my family my husband and myself.

I know one day I will have the perfect family wether that be by giving birth or adoption. But the sadness this has caused has been the hardest thing I have had to endure.

I am writing this today because I have felt very alone in this time and I hope none of you ever experience this sadness. But if you ever find yourself in this horrible situation know that you are not alone. So many women go through this but we are too embarrassed or sad or heartbroken to talk about it. This has not been easy for me to write but if I can help one person feel as if they are not alone it was well worth my tears.

I am very lucky to have a strong support system of family and friends who love me. But the truth is not many people know what to say or what to do to help. It’s a very hard thing to understand if you have not been through this yourself.

I love you all, thank you for continuing to be a line of love and support!

Thank you to all my friends and family who have showed me all there love and support. You mean the world to me.

Xoxo

Michelle

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There’s A Little Turkey In All Of Us

Hey Everyone,

Happy Monday, I know Mondays are typically nothing to be excited but I still hope you all had a great day!

It’s almost Thanksgiving here in America and you we can officially let the Holiday season begin! Just like most of the world, The holidays are always my favorite time of the year. The magic is everywhere people literally sing in the streets!

The best part about this time of the year is that you get to spend it with family and friends and the people who mean the most to you!

To me, Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because you get to express your love and thankfulness for each other! Its a time to reflect on the year and think about who and what you are thankful for. It’s not all about Turkey even though who could resist that much food!

Usually, I would post something like this on the actual holiday but for me, it was one of those Mondays I needed a little bit of optimism and thoughtfulness! Since this post is early I hope you all take the next few days to think about who and what you are thankful for!

For example:

I am thankful for every single one of my followers and readers, not only do I feel your love and support on a daily basis but you have become such good friends! Regardless of if we have ever met or ever will meet you all have become a huge part of my life! I wish you all a happy and healthy Thanksgiving!

XOXO,

Michelle

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Dress sizes can’t define, don’t let the world decide what’s beautiful

Hello Everyone,

I want to thank you all for the overwhelming amount of E-mails I received after my last post! They were all filled with kindness and love; I really have missed you all!!

Today I am writing to you all because of one email I got in particular! I received a very emotional and heartfelt letter from a high school sophomore.

She told me that she has always been struggling with her weight but has always considered herself to be beautiful! Until high school when people began to pick on her because of her size. She goes on to tell me that these girls have not only been embarrassing her but also have started to change how she sees herself and views her own body.

While reading this Email, I was almost in tears; no one should feel this way about themselves, and when these feelings are caused by the cruelty and ignorance of others, it is just so sad and it breaks my heart!

Now I can say that you shouldn’t listen to the cruel words of others, and only you can define how you feel about yourself, but in reality, this is almost impossible to do! Our peers play such a big part in our everyday life that it is so hard to ignore their opinions.

The best advice I can give someone in this position is to be strong, understand that you are beautiful and understand that there is a cruelty in this world that is not fair. Be the bigger person and don’t forget to put yourself first! Love yourself, know your worth and beauty, and truly love yourselves!

 

Love you all,

Michelle

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Lets Go Fly A Kite

Hello all of my favorite readers,

Happy Thursday. Today I spent the day surrounded by children! It was an exhausting day but who could complain about playing hide and seek all day and watching cartoons. But really, spending the day with kids makes you realize how amazing a child’s mind really is.

In a child’s mind the only thing that matters is laughing, playing, and just enjoying life! They don’t think twice about what come out of their mouths they just say it, They don’t worry about the time or if they have to do anything productive in a day. All they care about is fun! A child can love anyone they may just meet you but within 20 minutes you’re already best friends! A child’s life is so innocent and light-hearted that they have no worries.

Doesn’t this type of life sound nice! Well, I understand that once we grow up we need to accept responsibilities, become productive members of society, and live by a schedule that has more then nap time and play time in it. But I dare you all on your next free day to live like a child. I dare you all to go out play a game of hide and seek or tag with your friends. Schedule a good mid-day nap after a big plate of chocolate chip cookies. I want you all to live one day without thinking, just running around worrying about what fun thing you will do next.

So get out there! Host a tea party! Have a water balloon fight! and Go fly a Kite! We all deserve a day filled with nothing but fun!

Love you all

Michelle

Embracing Change

Hello everyone, Happy Tuesday!
Today I want to talk to you all about change. Summer is one of those seasons where you are waiting for change. Some of you may be moving into collage or high school. Others may be starting a new job, getting married, welcoming a new baby, or moving across country.
All these things I’ve mentioned are big changes some of you may be going through smaller changes as well. And everyone knows any type of change can be difficult to except or live through, but I like to think everything happens for a reason and these changes will benefit you in the future.
If you just sit there in your comfort zone nothing will ever happen your life will remain exactly where you are know! For many of us we dream of a big future you know the dream job adorable little family cute house with a garden out back. Well unless you have all of that know you will have to embrace many changes before you achieve that goal!!
So for all of you who fear these new changes coming up take a deep breath and look at it as just one more step towards your future! Life is an adventure!
I hope you all are well!! Love you guys!
Michelle

Be Your Own Kind Of Beautiful

Hello, all you beautiful people!
Today I what to talk to you about what makes you different! Being different is a good thing, you may not see that now but believe me all these little things that are different from your friends or peers will make you who you are! No one is exactly like you whether this be your appearance, belief or personality, I can guarantee you that there is something inside of you or outside of you that makes you different than others.
I never try to focus on looks in my posts but I have received a lot of letters from girls who hate one part of their appearance because it’s different than the norm or how the supermodels they want to look like! The first question you should ask yourself if you find yourself thinking this way is why? Why do you want to look like everyone else? or why do you want to look like the newest Victoria secret models? If your answer is because they are beautiful, then it is about time you look in the mirror because you are beautiful too!
Many of these models and actresses that you’re dying to look like went through times in their life when they didn’t feel beautiful either. In fact, Jennifer Gardner has spoken out recently about how shocked she was growing up when people would tell her she was pretty.

“It was a shock when I got to college to hear people say I was pretty,”

~ Jennifer Gardner

Everyone goes through times when they don’t feel beautiful, but you always need to remember you are! Not everyone is going to look the exact same and that’s what makes you beautiful! So be confident with who you are and know that you are beautiful! Have you ever heard the expression you must love yourself before you can truly be loved? Well, it’s the same thing with beauty! In order to really be yourself, you need to shed away your insecurities and realize that you are beautiful! There will always be those people who try to tear others down but if your confident and secure enough with yourself you will realize that they are wrong and that you are perfect just the way you are!
I am a natural red head so growing up in school was always hard since it was something that always made me different! In high school, I would dye my hair blonde every few weeks to try and hide my natural hair color. Also, their was a little show called South Park that made my life a living hell. They invented rude names for people with red hair and even established a
“kick a ginger day” fortunate for me I never got kicked but still it wasn’t the best time in my life! When I got to college I realized that my hair color doesn’t matter and that red is beautiful! I still enjoy changing my hair around when I get bored but not because I don’t feel beautiful! I love the red hair that I have and I know that its something that makes me me!
Beauty is something that lies in the eye of the beholder and your definition of beauty should be you! Because you should always feel like the most beautiful woman in the world!
I hope you all look in the mirror today and tell your self that your beautiful because you are!
~Michelle ❤

I’ve Never Gotten Tall Making Someone else Feel Small

Hello Everyone,

Today I want to talk to you about the extremely important topic of bullying! Recently my inboxes have been packed full of messages from girls who dread riding the bus or finding a seat to sit at during lunch time, I have also received an overwhelming amount of emails from mothers asking for any type of advice I could give them on what to tell their child when they come home crying every day. I have emailed all these people back personally to try and help but I think there is a lot of things that everyone should hear. So maybe the people out there who are to shy or afraid to find help will unerstand that they are not alone and they have nothing to fear in getting the help that is needed in situations like this!

The first thing I want to make clear is that being bullied is never your fault. You didn’t do anything to attract this type of nagative attention, Most bullies pick random targets in attempt to make themselves feel better or to attract any sort of attention they can get even if its negative attention. If someone picks on you for your glasses, style, sexual orientation, disabilities, weight, nationality, race, or anything else just know that you are beautiful and perfect just the way you are. And you should never change yourself for someone else. You are you and you should love that! The person who is bullying and picking on you doesn’t understand humanity. People are not toys and harming someone emotionally can be just as harmful as a physical attack. Bullying is attacking, it is wrong and needs to come to an end. If you are being bullied you need to know that their is nothing wrong with you but rather something wrong with the bully. If some one needs to harm others and rip them apart then they live a sad existance and they should be the ones who are ashamed of themselves and what they did not the people who they are victomizing.

I am sure that many of you have heard the advice of “just ignore it” but to me this sounds like horrible advice! Bullying is a horrible thing it can rip apart a person and casue fatal problems like depression, self harm drug abuse and even suicide. Instead of ignoring a big problem like bullying you should talk about it, talk to a councelor, teacher, parent, friends, sibling anyone and don’t worry about being a “tattle tale” bullying is worng and needs to be brought to the proper peoples attantion like a guidance councelor or teacher. Don’t be afraid to talk about it if you are being bullied like I said before its not your fault so don’t feel embarrassed.

With bullying tragedies making head lines in the news recetly a lot of celeberties have come out to talk about their own experiences being bullied and have even come up with songs and videos to help people through this hard time. There are alot of people who have gone through things similar to you in their life time talking to them can be helpful as well as theraputic. You are not alone and you should never feel alone! There are so many people in this world experiencing the same thing and having the same problems. I promise you that you are loved in this world and that people will understand and want to help you! What you face today or tomorrow is not going to be forever you need to understand that life gets better and rough times do pass. You should always be proud of who you are and live a life that is true to yourself. Do not change you apearance opinions or actions to make someone else happy or to try to be like everyone else! Being you is the one thing that you have that know one else has or could ever have! You should be proud of it and you should love it!

Here are a few songs and videos(click the pictures):

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I hope this has helped a few of you! I am always an email away to talk if any one needs venting however I do suggest that you talk to a parent or teacher who can help you in your everyday life and put an end to the bullying. I will link some advice websites and hotlines below as a refrence for any one who may need them. Remember that it does get better, you are stronger then you may think and to never give up!

Love you all

Refrences to find help:

http://www.kidshelp.com.au/teens/get-help/web-counselling/

http://www.nationalbullyinghelpline.co.uk/

http://www.stopbullying.gov/get-help-now/index.html

Fast Times At Ridgemont (or any other) High

Hello everyone,

Fast times at Ridgemont high is one of my favorite movies, maybe not the most appropriate or morally sound movie but still one of my favorites. True, it came out before I was born but its still great. For all of you who don’t wish they lived in the decade before your birth let me tell you what the movies about. Relationships, drugs, sex, gambling, and way too much drama you know typical over dramatized teen movie. Now my post really has nothing to do with this movie other then the fact that I thought it would make for a catchy title.

Anyway….

I wanted to write to all of my high school readers today. Those who are about to graduate, head off to college, join the military, or work on a career. At this point in your life, you are about to go head to head with a whole lot of change and choices. Which college should I go to, what should I major in, do I want to take this job or that one, am I ready for the military? What every question you are looking to answer you should know that the only one who can answer them is you.

By saying this, I know I sound like a broken record or some sort of self-help pamphlet, but it’s true. For the first time, you all are facing what it’s like to make life altering decisions. It’s scary! I’ve been there just like so many others. The best advice I can give you is to listen to yourself, do what feels right and know when to politely ignore others opinions.

You are about to move on to a very different time in your life. It is the intermediate stage, where you learn how to become an adult. Whether you stay in the same town or move to a different country you will all experience change a lot of changes. Like trying to keep relationships with your friends from your hometown whether you or your friend moves away you should be prepared to put in the extra effort to keep these relationships strong. You also will need to learn to manage your money, your time, and your priorities. It is important to keep your morals and priorities your own in times of drastic change, sometimes people can get swept up in a new lifestyle because that’s what they think they should do what they are in new situations.

I am not saying any of this to scare you. But actually to do the opposite! I am saying this to help prepare you so you will thrive and smile through these obstacles in your life. But remember the last few months that you have left before these changes occur, enjoy it! Your high school experience may have seemed long but looking back you will think it flew by. Just like the times you are about to experience, you will look back and all this will seem so short so enjoy it while your living it!!

Good Luck ❤

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Reese Witherspoon At the Oscars!

Hello everyone!

I know that the title makes this sound like one of the typical Oscar posts! You know best and worst dress and all! However, I promise that this post will be very very different then what you are going to expect!

I just wanted to write to you about a few things that Reese Witherspoon brought up tonight! The first thing would be her Oscar Instagram post! Earlier tonight Reese wrote:

❤ this movement #AskHerMore..have you heard of it? It’s meant to inspire reporters to ask creative questions on the red carpet. I love the Oscars AND fashion like many of you – & am excited to share #WhoAmIWearinglater tonight. (not yet!!) But I’d also love to answer some of these Qs….And hear your suggestions?! (Share em below!) There are so many amazing, talented nominees this year..! Let’s hear their stories! Spread the word. #AskHerMore #Oscars #Countdown

What I loved about this is that she is trying to make an extremely vain aspect of the award show into so much more than that! I have never been one to idolize models or actresses however I think that a few of them can be seen as strong woman who deserve to be recognized. Reese Witherspoon is one of these women! She has gone through most of her career playing strong female leads that make a woman feel empowered. Now that she has began producing she has taken on stories of strong women, such as Wild.

Reese is a woman with a lot of influence on the world as well as on many young women and girls! For her to come out and say that although what people are wearing at the Oscars is fun. There is a lot more to a woman than their dresses, hairstyles, or overall appearance, is inspiring. I hope that many people realize that women are strong and can inspire!

I hope that others can see that there is more to a woman than her outfits, hair, or looks. People are beautiful for their personality, talents, kindness, good deeds, lovingness, strength, and soo soo much more! You are all beautiful inside and out! ❤

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BeYOUtiful!

Hello all of my favorite readers!

I just wanted to write to you about the word beautiful!

From dictionary.com:

“adjective: having beauty; possessing qualities that give great pleasure or satisfaction to see, hear, think about, etc.”

When I read this my first thought was not model, and that shouldn’t have been your thought either! My first thought was my family members, friends, and, of course, all of you! You see the problem that many people have today about, not feeling beautiful is do to all the photoshopped pictures that we have thrown at us every time we read a magazine, turn on the TV, or go on the internet! the only way to fix this problem is to realize what beauty really is!

Beauty is in every one of you! You all are beautiful because you are you! Everyone has their own form of beauty! You don’t have to have pouty lips like Angelina Jole or be as tall as Taylor Swift to be considered beautiful! All you have to do is be true to you! You don’t need the newest fashion trends or the latest hairstyle all you have to do is do what makes you happy! Because there is nothing more beautiful than a smile! Happiness will never go out of style!

Everyone should look in the mirror and realize that, that girl looking back at you is beautiful because she is you!!

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