I apologize that I haven’t posted in a very long time. After college life just seems to get in the way of all the little things you want to do rather then have to do.
I am writing today because I have experienced the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our miracle baby earlier this fall. After turning my life upside down to make sure everything would be perfect for our growing family we found out our baby had stopped developing. There was nothing we could do but cry and morn this little miracle that we are never going to meet.
I waited weeks to have a natural miscarriage because I didn’t think I could mentally deal with the idea of surgery. It turned out that my body wasn’t able to detect that the baby had stoped developing and I had to go through the procedure regardless of how hard it would be. I prayed for so long to become pregnant and I knew walking into the hospital that day that when I woke up I would no longer be pregnant. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
Early last year my husband and I were told that we would have very little time to have our own child and after trying for so long it seemed like nothing would work. I finally gave up hope on having my own child, I started focusing on a career and looked forward to the day that we could afford to adopt or find a surrogate to bless us with a completed family.
Then this miracle happened and I can’t begin to tell you how much it filled my life and my heart with happiness. I would have moved mountains for this little baby. And although I know there was nothing I could do to prevent this from happening I feel as if I have failed my family my husband and myself.
I know one day I will have the perfect family wether that be by giving birth or adoption. But the sadness this has caused has been the hardest thing I have had to endure.
I am writing this today because I have felt very alone in this time and I hope none of you ever experience this sadness. But if you ever find yourself in this horrible situation know that you are not alone. So many women go through this but we are too embarrassed or sad or heartbroken to talk about it. This has not been easy for me to write but if I can help one person feel as if they are not alone it was well worth my tears.
I am very lucky to have a strong support system of family and friends who love me. But the truth is not many people know what to say or what to do to help. It’s a very hard thing to understand if you have not been through this yourself.
I love you all, thank you for continuing to be a line of love and support!
Thank you to all my friends and family who have showed me all there love and support. You mean the world to me.
Happy Monday, I know Mondays are typically nothing to be excited but I still hope you all had a great day!
It’s almost Thanksgiving here in America and you we can officially let the Holiday season begin! Just like most of the world, The holidays are always my favorite time of the year. The magic is everywhere people literally sing in the streets!
The best part about this time of the year is that you get to spend it with family and friends and the people who mean the most to you!
To me, Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because you get to express your love and thankfulness for each other! Its a time to reflect on the year and think about who and what you are thankful for. It’s not all about Turkey even though who could resist that much food!
Usually, I would post something like this on the actual holiday but for me, it was one of those Mondays I needed a little bit of optimism and thoughtfulness! Since this post is early I hope you all take the next few days to think about who and what you are thankful for!
I am thankful for every single one of my followers and readers, not only do I feel your love and support on a daily basis but you have become such good friends! Regardless of if we have ever met or ever will meet you all have become a huge part of my life! I wish you all a happy and healthy Thanksgiving!
One year ago today Tyler and I found our little Kitty outside of our apartment complex! She was cold and hungry but so loving and kind!
First Photo With Tonks
She lived with us two days before we finally decided on her name! She took to us very fast and it was a relief when the vets gave her a clean bill of health!
She won the hearts of our friends and family, and before you knew it the lonely little kitty had the love of so many people!
People may say I am crazy for taking Tonks on walks in a stroller or for driving around with her in her car seat! But she has become like my child, we are there for each other, partners in crime!
So go ahead tell me I am crazy because I probably am! But over the last year Tonks has been with us through: planning a wedding, getting married, graduating college, holidays, and moving twice! That is a lot of bonding!
So here is to the last year, and to many more with my furry friend! We love you Tonks, you will always have a forever home with us!
I must apologize for my extended absence! I must say I have been a very busy girl, most recently I have started grad school!
I was offered a full assistantship! Allowing me to go to school as well as get a great experience of working as a Teaching Assistant, enabling me to teach classes, and do some real world hands on research!
I just finished my first week, and so far I have no complaints, it is so nice being back to school.
Me and Tyler also through a celebration of our marriage, a second reception! As many of you know our wedding ceremony was planned ver quickly and even though it was fantastic it was very nice to have a bigger party that all our friends and family could attend!
It’s been a crazy and fun summer!
I am hoping to get back to you all more regularly; I am going to make an honest effort! I miss all of my web friends! Let me know if there is anything you want me to touch upon in the next few days!
Talk to you all soon!
Lots of love,
Happy Monday! The start of yet another week!
As many of you know Tyler and I just passed the three month mark of our marriage last Friday! Many of you wrote to wish us a Happy Anniversary which was so thoughtful especially since I hadn’t even posted about it! You all are awesome!
But anyway I wanted to write to you all today about waiting for Mr. right and refusing to settle for anyone but him!
Every girl dreams of their fairy tale coming true and the day they walk down the aisle to their Prince Charming! Having done this a few months ago believe me when I say it truly will be the happiest moment of your life.
But this magical moment would certainly not be magical if the wrong person is standing at the end of the aisle! I know how lucky I am to have found my other half, people spend a lifetime looking for their person and I was lucky to find him at such a young age!
I had dated my fair amount of men before I met Tyler and although many of them were kind and will make great husbands one day, I know the only person who can truly make me this happy is Tyler.
Many of you write into me for dating advice or to tell me about that special someone! And that is amazing, everyone deserves someone who makes them feel unconditionally loved but don’t force these feelings or rush through enjoying a relationship! When you find Mr. Right you will know it, something will just, click and you will look at this person and know you will spend forever with them!
Like I said I know how lucky I am to have found Tyler so young but believe me when I say these feelings are worth waiting a lifetime for. You all deserve that unconditional love of the right person so don’t settle, and don’t force it. He is out there and he is worth the wait!
Love you all
I hope you are all having a great weekend! Today I want to talk to everyone about positivity!
I talk a lot about staying optimistic and positive for you own well being and mental health but I think there are many other great things about being optimistic as well!
For one, everyone wants to be around happy people! In the work place,at school, basically any where! People want to be around positivity! Looking at life through rose colored glasses is a great trait and people like to be around those who aren’t downers and who do not focus on bad things!
Sometimes things happen and can make the whole world seem bad. Sometimes you may not be so optimistic and that’s okay too! We all have those days. But in general I think looking at the glass half full makes you feel better about your everyday life!
I hope you all decide to put on those rose colored glasses every now and then and smile!
Love you all,
Today I want to talk to you all about something I am very excited for! Tyler and I are planning on moving home!
We moved a couple hours away from where our family is for college, even though we initially planned on staying up here for a few more years we decided that it was about time to find a place towards our family.
I grew up extremely close to my family and Tyler did too! Although we were close enough to make it home for holidays and birthdays it will be so nice to reconnect with everyone on a daily basis!
For all my fellow instagramers we all know today is “Transformation Tuesday” which makes me think of all the times my family was there for me throughout my life! The picture below is one of my favorite pictures! It reminds me of how time really does fly and how much life you share with people.
The people in this picture are some of my cousins. We have all gone through different things but have each other to lean on! This is my generation of family we will grow old together and experience even more together as time moves on!
You have heard a lot about many different members of my family! One person who I would like to talk to you all about is my cousin Kyle!
Kyle is the youngest in my generation, Kyle is one of the kindest people you will ever meet! He is caring and funny. He is always fun to be around and a great friend. Kyle is one of those people with a contagious personality! It is impossible to be around him and not be laughing and enjoying life!
I wish everyone could share this same personality and joy. It would make the world a happier and cheerful place! Filled with humor and kindness!
I hope you all value your family and never forget what they’ve done for you! Never forget where you’ve come from and the people who have made you who you are.
Love you all,
I still feel horrible but at least I’m able to write to you all today!
Today I want to talk to you all about hard work and dedication!
A few days ago I got a call from my cousin Kelsey! She called to tell me she had passed two of her three teaching tests! Only one more test to take in a few weeks!
Kelsey has always been driven and dedicated! And it’s so nice to see her succeeding and all her hard work finally coming back to her!
Kelsey is going to be a fantastic teacher and he kids that she will teach will be blessed with all she can teach them!
I just wanted to say another congratulations to Kelsey! I love you and I couldn’t be more proud of you!
To all of you I hope that this story can help you all realize that all the time and effort you put into your dreams will come back and reward you!
Love you all,