My Recent Struggle

Hello everyone,

I apologize that I haven’t posted in a very long time. After college life just seems to get in the way of all the little things you want to do rather then have to do.

I am writing today because I have experienced the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our miracle baby earlier this fall. After turning my life upside down to make sure everything would be perfect for our growing family we found out our baby had stopped developing. There was nothing we could do but cry and morn this little miracle that we are never going to meet.

I waited weeks to have a natural miscarriage because I didn’t think I could mentally deal with the idea of surgery. It turned out that my body wasn’t able to detect that the baby had stoped developing and I had to go through the procedure regardless of how hard it would be. I prayed for so long to become pregnant and I knew walking into the hospital that day that when I woke up I would no longer be pregnant. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Early last year my husband and I were told that we would have very little time to have our own child and after trying for so long it seemed like nothing would work. I finally gave up hope on having my own child, I started focusing on a career and looked forward to the day that we could afford to adopt or find a surrogate to bless us with a completed family.

Then this miracle happened and I can’t begin to tell you how much it filled my life and my heart with happiness. I would have moved mountains for this little baby. And although I know there was nothing I could do to prevent this from happening I feel as if I have failed my family my husband and myself.

I know one day I will have the perfect family wether that be by giving birth or adoption. But the sadness this has caused has been the hardest thing I have had to endure.

I am writing this today because I have felt very alone in this time and I hope none of you ever experience this sadness. But if you ever find yourself in this horrible situation know that you are not alone. So many women go through this but we are too embarrassed or sad or heartbroken to talk about it. This has not been easy for me to write but if I can help one person feel as if they are not alone it was well worth my tears.

I am very lucky to have a strong support system of family and friends who love me. But the truth is not many people know what to say or what to do to help. It’s a very hard thing to understand if you have not been through this yourself.

I love you all, thank you for continuing to be a line of love and support!

Thank you to all my friends and family who have showed me all there love and support. You mean the world to me.

Xoxo

Michelle

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Bella’s Illness

image1-1This will be our third Christmas with Bella, every year she gets excited and uses her nose to sniff out all her treats wrapped under the tree. When we rescued two-year-old Bella from the MSPCA she was a little ball of energy. There were signs that she had been abused in her previous home so it took her a few months to feel safe and realize all image1we wanted to do was love her.
We wanted to give Bella the best most loving forever home we possibly could. We wanted her to feel safe and secure, loved, and wanted. Bella went multiple times a week to run with her friends at doggy daycare or as we called it school, she knew the days she wanted to go see her friends because she would bark and follow you around the entire time you were getting ready for work. Bella loves to watch the voice and lay in front of her fake fireplace.capture
We know that Bella didn’t have the easiest life in her previous home. When we adopted her we wanted to give her the best possible life we could give her. She is a sweet and lovingcapture7 Bulldog that wins over the hearts of anyone who has the pleasure of knowing her.

Recently Bella had started whimpering and crying out in pain. It has taken multiple Vets several weeks and many tests before they finally found what is causing Bella’s pain. capture4Through an MRI administered by a Neurologist they have been able to diagnose her with Inflammatory Brain Disease, this is a brain disease which is causing her severe pain; as well as, seizures and vertigo. As her family we want to give her every chance she has to live a full and happy life especially since Bella is only five years old. Vets have recommended a series of chemo treatments, steroids, and pain medicine to keep her comfortable.

capture5This makes me so sad not just because she’s my pup but because  She deserves to be happy and healthy!!!! We are blessed to have her grace our home with her spunk and personality.

A Binge-Worthy New Blog

Hi, everyone!

I hope your holidays haven’t been too stressful! With all of the traffic and long lines in stores, sometimes it’s easy to forget that holidays are supposed to be fun and about family and loved ones! So take a deep breath, make yourself a cocoa and enjoy this last week before Christmas or Hanukkah!

One of the reasons I got into blogging was because reading other people’s blogs has always been a great escape for me, when my life gets stressful, or I’m just looking for something to keep me entertained I turn to others blogs. Reading the words that these people choose to share with the world make you feel like you know them on a personal level! You become friends with them just as I became friends with all of you!

I am mentioning my deep appreciation for bloggers today because I want to share with you a new blog I have recently been loving! It’s called “Jess Said That”, As you all know I love to share about strong women who are sharing their voice! “Jess Said That” is written by my cousins Jess, she is a middle school teacher and just became a first-time mom! Jess shares her perspective on motherhood, pregnancy, and life in general! Her posts are filled with truth, babies, humor, and 100% real life! She is an amazing writer and has so much to share with all of you! I wholeheartedly recommend you all go give “Jess Said That” a read and a subscribe!

https://jesssaidthat.wordpress.com/

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There’s A Little Turkey In All Of Us

Hey Everyone,

Happy Monday, I know Mondays are typically nothing to be excited but I still hope you all had a great day!

It’s almost Thanksgiving here in America and you we can officially let the Holiday season begin! Just like most of the world, The holidays are always my favorite time of the year. The magic is everywhere people literally sing in the streets!

The best part about this time of the year is that you get to spend it with family and friends and the people who mean the most to you!

To me, Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because you get to express your love and thankfulness for each other! Its a time to reflect on the year and think about who and what you are thankful for. It’s not all about Turkey even though who could resist that much food!

Usually, I would post something like this on the actual holiday but for me, it was one of those Mondays I needed a little bit of optimism and thoughtfulness! Since this post is early I hope you all take the next few days to think about who and what you are thankful for!

For example:

I am thankful for every single one of my followers and readers, not only do I feel your love and support on a daily basis but you have become such good friends! Regardless of if we have ever met or ever will meet you all have become a huge part of my life! I wish you all a happy and healthy Thanksgiving!

XOXO,

Michelle

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Cativersary

One year ago today Tyler and I found our little Kitty outside of our apartment complex! She was cold and hungry but so loving and kind!

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She lived with us two days before we finally decided on her name! She took to us very fast and it was a relief when the vets gave her a clean bill of health!

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She won the hearts of our friends and family, and before you knew it the lonely little kitty had the love of so many people!

People may say I am crazy for taking Tonks on walks in a stroller or for driving around with her in her car seat! But she has become like my child, we are there for each other, partners in crime!

So go ahead tell me I am crazy because I probably am! But over the last year Tonks has been with us through: planning a wedding, getting married, graduating college, holidays, and moving twice! That is a lot of bonding!

So here is to the last year, and to many more with my furry friend! We love you Tonks, you will always have a forever home with us!

 

 

Wild Blue Denim Available at Rue 21

Hi Everyone!

Many of you know I have started working for the university I graduated from a few months back! Along with this amazing job I have been given the opportunity to get a masters degree while working there!

This has been such an amazing opportunity I clearly wasn’t ready to say goodbye to the inner student living inside of me!

Well if I have ever heard of a good reason to go shopping for a new outfit it would be starting a new school year!

I have teamed up with Wild Blue Denim and Rue 21 to tell you about some amazing styles that you can rock this fall/winter!

Wild Blue Denim has so many great pieces out this year no matter what your style is they have something for you! I love the high quality and affordability of their pieces!

You can mix so many of them together to create countless fun and flirty looks! So if you are looking for some new great pieces for the 2016 Fall/Winter season look no further than Wild Blue Denim available at Rue 21!

I guarantee you will find your new favorite pieces that will make you feel beautiful, confident, and all around amazing!

http://wildbluedenim.com/

http://www.rue21.com/store/

 

Dress sizes can’t define, don’t let the world decide what’s beautiful

Hello Everyone,

I want to thank you all for the overwhelming amount of E-mails I received after my last post! They were all filled with kindness and love; I really have missed you all!!

Today I am writing to you all because of one email I got in particular! I received a very emotional and heartfelt letter from a high school sophomore.

She told me that she has always been struggling with her weight but has always considered herself to be beautiful! Until high school when people began to pick on her because of her size. She goes on to tell me that these girls have not only been embarrassing her but also have started to change how she sees herself and views her own body.

While reading this Email, I was almost in tears; no one should feel this way about themselves, and when these feelings are caused by the cruelty and ignorance of others, it is just so sad and it breaks my heart!

Now I can say that you shouldn’t listen to the cruel words of others, and only you can define how you feel about yourself, but in reality, this is almost impossible to do! Our peers play such a big part in our everyday life that it is so hard to ignore their opinions.

The best advice I can give someone in this position is to be strong, understand that you are beautiful and understand that there is a cruelty in this world that is not fair. Be the bigger person and don’t forget to put yourself first! Love yourself, know your worth and beauty, and truly love yourselves!

 

Love you all,

Michelle

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Hello World

Hello Everyone,

I must apologize for my extended absence! I must say I have been a very busy girl, most recently I have started grad school!

I was offered a full assistantship! Allowing me to go to school as well as get a great experience of working as a Teaching Assistant, enabling me to teach classes, and do some real world hands on research!

I just finished my first week, and so far I have no complaints, it is so nice being back to school.

Me and Tyler also through a celebration of our marriage, a second reception! As many of you know our wedding ceremony was planned ver quickly and even though it was fantastic it was very nice to have a bigger party that all our friends and family could attend!

It’s been a crazy and fun summer!

I am hoping to get back to you all more regularly; I am going to make an honest effort! I miss all of my web friends! Let me know if there is anything you want me to touch upon in the next few days!

Talk to you all soon!

Lots of love,

Michelle

 

My Addiction Too…. Netflix

Hello Everyone,

I hope you all are having a great weekend!

Today I want to talk to you all about something we all do, binge watch TV shows. Netflix has seemed to become my outlet: When I’m stressed… Netflix When I am sad… Netflix When I’m bored… Netflix!

TV shows, movies, documentaries, yes I may be rotting my brain, but I am really enjoying myself while I do it!

So this isn’t my typical post, but I am getting there I promise…

We all have our guilty pleasures, and that’s okay sometimes to keep ourselves balanced and sane so don’t be ashamed of these things whether its TV, Video games, music, exercise whatever it is if it helps you get through whatever you are going through then its a good thing.

So remember to get off the couch every once and a while to do things that are good for you, get your work done, but also enjoy yourself. You aren’t living if you are not enjoying it!

Love you all,

Michelle

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A New Adventure

Hello Everyone!

I hope you all enjoyed your Friday!

Today I want to tell you all about something super exciting! I have just accepted a new job. The job involves a lot of research and data entry so it is perfect for a nerd like me! It is close to our new home and the people there seem amazing!

I know many of you have been struggling to find the perfect job and believe me I know it is hard but hang in there keep trying, it really will pay off and you will make it through!

I was always worried about my major, So many times I wondered if I was going to end up with a useless degree because my major was so specific and uncommon. But here I am with my second job involving the skills I have learned with my anthropology degree! (the first being my work at the hospital)

Well, I just wanted to share some good news and remind you all that if you stick with it and follow your dreams you will find the right place in this world!

Love you all,

Michelle

 

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