My Recent Struggle

Hello everyone,

I apologize that I haven’t posted in a very long time. After college life just seems to get in the way of all the little things you want to do rather then have to do.

I am writing today because I have experienced the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our miracle baby earlier this fall. After turning my life upside down to make sure everything would be perfect for our growing family we found out our baby had stopped developing. There was nothing we could do but cry and morn this little miracle that we are never going to meet.

I waited weeks to have a natural miscarriage because I didn’t think I could mentally deal with the idea of surgery. It turned out that my body wasn’t able to detect that the baby had stoped developing and I had to go through the procedure regardless of how hard it would be. I prayed for so long to become pregnant and I knew walking into the hospital that day that when I woke up I would no longer be pregnant. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Early last year my husband and I were told that we would have very little time to have our own child and after trying for so long it seemed like nothing would work. I finally gave up hope on having my own child, I started focusing on a career and looked forward to the day that we could afford to adopt or find a surrogate to bless us with a completed family.

Then this miracle happened and I can’t begin to tell you how much it filled my life and my heart with happiness. I would have moved mountains for this little baby. And although I know there was nothing I could do to prevent this from happening I feel as if I have failed my family my husband and myself.

I know one day I will have the perfect family wether that be by giving birth or adoption. But the sadness this has caused has been the hardest thing I have had to endure.

I am writing this today because I have felt very alone in this time and I hope none of you ever experience this sadness. But if you ever find yourself in this horrible situation know that you are not alone. So many women go through this but we are too embarrassed or sad or heartbroken to talk about it. This has not been easy for me to write but if I can help one person feel as if they are not alone it was well worth my tears.

I am very lucky to have a strong support system of family and friends who love me. But the truth is not many people know what to say or what to do to help. It’s a very hard thing to understand if you have not been through this yourself.

I love you all, thank you for continuing to be a line of love and support!

Thank you to all my friends and family who have showed me all there love and support. You mean the world to me.

Xoxo

Michelle

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A Binge-Worthy New Blog

Hi, everyone!

I hope your holidays haven’t been too stressful! With all of the traffic and long lines in stores, sometimes it’s easy to forget that holidays are supposed to be fun and about family and loved ones! So take a deep breath, make yourself a cocoa and enjoy this last week before Christmas or Hanukkah!

One of the reasons I got into blogging was because reading other people’s blogs has always been a great escape for me, when my life gets stressful, or I’m just looking for something to keep me entertained I turn to others blogs. Reading the words that these people choose to share with the world make you feel like you know them on a personal level! You become friends with them just as I became friends with all of you!

I am mentioning my deep appreciation for bloggers today because I want to share with you a new blog I have recently been loving! It’s called “Jess Said That”, As you all know I love to share about strong women who are sharing their voice! “Jess Said That” is written by my cousins Jess, she is a middle school teacher and just became a first-time mom! Jess shares her perspective on motherhood, pregnancy, and life in general! Her posts are filled with truth, babies, humor, and 100% real life! She is an amazing writer and has so much to share with all of you! I wholeheartedly recommend you all go give “Jess Said That” a read and a subscribe!

https://jesssaidthat.wordpress.com/

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Dress sizes can’t define, don’t let the world decide what’s beautiful

Hello Everyone,

I want to thank you all for the overwhelming amount of E-mails I received after my last post! They were all filled with kindness and love; I really have missed you all!!

Today I am writing to you all because of one email I got in particular! I received a very emotional and heartfelt letter from a high school sophomore.

She told me that she has always been struggling with her weight but has always considered herself to be beautiful! Until high school when people began to pick on her because of her size. She goes on to tell me that these girls have not only been embarrassing her but also have started to change how she sees herself and views her own body.

While reading this Email, I was almost in tears; no one should feel this way about themselves, and when these feelings are caused by the cruelty and ignorance of others, it is just so sad and it breaks my heart!

Now I can say that you shouldn’t listen to the cruel words of others, and only you can define how you feel about yourself, but in reality, this is almost impossible to do! Our peers play such a big part in our everyday life that it is so hard to ignore their opinions.

The best advice I can give someone in this position is to be strong, understand that you are beautiful and understand that there is a cruelty in this world that is not fair. Be the bigger person and don’t forget to put yourself first! Love yourself, know your worth and beauty, and truly love yourselves!

 

Love you all,

Michelle

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Hello World

Hello Everyone,

I must apologize for my extended absence! I must say I have been a very busy girl, most recently I have started grad school!

I was offered a full assistantship! Allowing me to go to school as well as get a great experience of working as a Teaching Assistant, enabling me to teach classes, and do some real world hands on research!

I just finished my first week, and so far I have no complaints, it is so nice being back to school.

Me and Tyler also through a celebration of our marriage, a second reception! As many of you know our wedding ceremony was planned ver quickly and even though it was fantastic it was very nice to have a bigger party that all our friends and family could attend!

It’s been a crazy and fun summer!

I am hoping to get back to you all more regularly; I am going to make an honest effort! I miss all of my web friends! Let me know if there is anything you want me to touch upon in the next few days!

Talk to you all soon!

Lots of love,

Michelle

 

‘Ohana Means Family

Hello Everyone,
I hope you all enjoyed your St. Patrick’s Day! I certainly did!
Yesterday was another magical day at Walt Disney World! In the morning we went back to ‘Ohanas but this time for a character breakfast with LILO and Stitch! This is the one place in the park you can currently meet Stitch and believe me it was so worth it! The food was great and he was adorable! 
After that we went to Hollywood Studios to experience more Star Wars and ride all the rides! We enjoyed Star Tours and the new Toy Story Midway Ride! The day was incredibly magical! 
After we spent the majority of the day in Hollywood Studios we went to Magic Kingdom to do dinner at the new Be Our Guest Restaurant! This was amazing it was straight out of the movie! The rooms were gorgeous and we got to meet our host the beast! 
We were able to get on to the Pirates of the Caribbean and It’s A Small World before the park closed! 
Can’t wait to experience all the magic tomorrow! 
Love you all,
Michelle

   
    
    
    
    
    
    
    
    
   

What’s In My Carry On

Hello Everyone,

I have 5 days until I leave for Disney! As you might be able to tell I am so excited to be starting this adventure. Not only is this our spring break trip but our honeymoon! We went on a weekend trip to Connecticut right after our wedding so that we could save the money and find a time to go to Disney.
Well now it is less then a week away and am getting all gitty just thinking about the morning we leave!
Today I packed my carry on filled with all the things I will try to entertain myself with. So here is what is in my Darth Vader carry on:

  • My hot pink HP laptop (so I can keep up with all of you)
  • Yes cucumber face wipes (always need to refresh after a day of travel)
  • My Vera Bradley wallet (it is the perfect size to keep everything you need for travel)
  • A mini hair brush by precision beauty (great quality and perfect size)
  • My notebook and calendar book (work on ideas for the blog, of course!)
  • A new pair of Skullcandy headphones (the only headphones I use)
  • My favorite YBF lipstick (Check them out, I love the shade pumpkin spice)
  • Star Wars tissues (to go with my Vader bag, of course)
  • Iphone charger (can’t travel with out power)
  • A fun pair of sunglasses (designed by Merona)
  • The book A night in with Audrey Hepburn by Lucy Holliday ( loving it so far, book review after the vacation)
  • Of course my Disney Magic Band so we can jump straight to the magic when we land in Orlando

Love you all,

Michelle

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Fly with me to Neverland

Hello Everyone!

I hope you all are enjoying this gorgeous Sunday morning! 

I wanted to let you know of something that I am extremely excited about! 

In just 15 days Tyler and I will be boarding a plane to Disney world! And I’m taking you all with me!

I will be blogging everyday about what we have seen, what we have done, and  basically my blog will be filled with magic for a week! 

I will be covering everything from what rides we go on to where we plan to eat! 

I hope you all join me for a week of Disney Magic! My first post will begin the 13th with the prep and the last post will be on the 19th with our flight home! 

I’m so excited to share this adventure with all of you!

Love you all,

Michelle

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Healthy Body Healthy Mind

Hello everyone,

Today I want to talk to you all about being good to your body and staying healthy! This is not a talk about how to lose weight or any crazy diets! It’s about YOU and your HEALTH!

I am an active supporter in keeping a healthy diet! It just makes you feel better. The saying you are what you eat is 100% true. You only have one body do not through away your one chance to live an exciting and healthy life.

Know I am not saying to live off of green smoothies and kale for the rest of you life (although they are good) but just make a conscious effort to feed your body good food! Choose a side salad over fries and drink water instead of soda, just these little changes can make a world of differences!

I am not a gym person, and I never have been. I feel weird being in a room packed full of sweaty people who honestly do not want to be there! and I get so bored staring at the same white walls while running on a stationary machine. Because of this, I exercise at home! I do a simple yoga video every other day and, belief me, it makes a world of difference!

I have always had problems with my back, constant visits to the chiropractor is a norm for me. But since I started doing yoga it has made a world of difference. I roll out my yoga mat in my living room and pick a workout off of Hulu ( the one in the picture is Yasmin Yoga), and I just do it I can pause it if I have to do something its perfect for me!

There are so many free exercise videos on youtube or on demand; you can pick what you want! From yoga to pilates, from boxing to weightlifting there’s no excuse why everyone can;t exercise!

I hope you all choose to keep your bodies healthy and happy.

Namaste,

Michelle

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An Open Letter To My Readers

Hello Everyone,

I hope you enjoyed the guest post from my husband yesterday! He was very excited to get to know you all!

Today I want to write to you about why I made this blog in the first place! Yesterday was my 100th post and I celebrated 3 years on wordpress last week! I feel like its about time that I restate my intent behind this blog.

I started writing my freshman year of college. It started as a way to relieve stress and feel like I was putting some good into the world. I wanted to write to women who needed a confidence boost and a little bit of help seeing their self worth!

I am a true believer that everyone is beautiful and we all deserve to know it! When I first started I was just hoping to reach a few girls and help them with the words I wrote! I remember when I got my first comment saying I helped someone, it was the best feeling ever! Over time I started receiving messages from girls asking for my advice and opinions, this is where a good chunk of my posts came from, I figured if one girl is having these problems others must be too!

I was very happy with my readers I felt like even though I had few readers I was helping those who I was able to reach. But last year everything blew up! I started getting hundreds of subscribers a day and thousands upon thousands of viewers. I tried to keep up with the messages but I am only one person. I began to feel like I wasn’t doing enough for all of you and that I was inadequate to be trying to help so many people. My posts began to get less frequent and eventually I stopped posting for months at a time.

Quite recently I have decided that I can only do the best I can but I still want to help! I am back to blogging everyday and trying to help as many people as I can. I must admit that writing anything that hundreds of thousands of people are going to read is a little daunting but I believe that my words can help!

I  hope you have all enjoyed reading my posts over the last three years. Thank you for sticking with me, you all have told me time and time again of how much I have helped you, but you all have helped me too! You all have become my friends, people who I look forward to sharing my stories with. You have been with me through breakups, bad hair cuts, loss of family members, loss of friends, an engagement, and a marriage! So for always being on the other side of the internet I thank you!

I promise to do my very best to always be a loyal friend to all of you and to keep sharing love and advice!

With Love,

Michelle

 

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A Single Girls Guide To a Netflix Valentines Day

Hello Everyone,

Happy Valentines Day!!

I have been single for enough Valentines day to know that sometimes this day can make the strongest of single ladies feel down. But today is just like any other days! Stay strong woman and celebrate the love you have for yourself, your family, and your friends. Today is all about love; your Valentine can be anyone including yourself! So practice self-love today and do what you want, do what makes you feel beautiful, and do what makes you feel loved!

I spent all of my single valentines days in the most cliche way. With a carton of ice cream, a can of whipped cream and some great movies!

Bellow I will list some of my suggested Netflix movies that will make any single lady feel strong and independent. So here are my top 5 movies that are streaming now!

Click on any of the gifs below to watch the trailers!

#5

The Stepford Wives- Rated PG-13

This is one of the most entertaining movies on Netflix! What better way to realize how great it is to a strong and independent woman then to watch a modern woman take down a bunch of stereotypical “housewives” straight out of the 50’s. The movie is a mixture of a chick-flick and a thriller!

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#4 Crossroads- Rated PG-13

This might be the corniest cliche 90’s teen chick flick! But it’s great! What a group of old friends reconnect over a cross country road trip! It’s a great movie about friendship and finding your inner strength! Plus its a lot of fun watching a young Brittany Spears act! tumblr_mjadgcQUN11rl8rnpo1_500.gif

#3 Mulan- Rated PG

Yes, it’s a cartoon but it is also one of the best girl power movies ever made! Mulan is no damsel in distress; she proves to the world that she is strong, and a fighter, she doesn’t need a man to save her! She is one of my heroes, and the movie is one of my favorites!

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#2 Marvel’s Jessica Jones

Okay, so it’s a TV show and not technically a movie, but it shows how a girl can kick butt! If you are looking for a binge-worthy TV show, I highly suggest jumping into this one! It’s all about girl power! Trust me Jessica Jones is tough!

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#1 Legally Blonde-Rated PG-13

Well, I am sure you all know the story of the dumb blonde who decides to go to law school because of the boy who got away! Then find her true self and who she was meant to be! This is one of the best feminist films I know it’s funny, smart, and witty! Watch a very lost girl become a powerful and intelligent woman!

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So stroll over to netflix.com and catch up on some girl power! Remember you all are beautiful and deserve the to feel that way every day, even valentines day! Love yourself today!!

Love you all,

Michelle  ❤