My Recent Struggle

Hello everyone,

I apologize that I haven’t posted in a very long time. After college life just seems to get in the way of all the little things you want to do rather then have to do.

I am writing today because I have experienced the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our miracle baby earlier this fall. After turning my life upside down to make sure everything would be perfect for our growing family we found out our baby had stopped developing. There was nothing we could do but cry and morn this little miracle that we are never going to meet.

I waited weeks to have a natural miscarriage because I didn’t think I could mentally deal with the idea of surgery. It turned out that my body wasn’t able to detect that the baby had stoped developing and I had to go through the procedure regardless of how hard it would be. I prayed for so long to become pregnant and I knew walking into the hospital that day that when I woke up I would no longer be pregnant. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Early last year my husband and I were told that we would have very little time to have our own child and after trying for so long it seemed like nothing would work. I finally gave up hope on having my own child, I started focusing on a career and looked forward to the day that we could afford to adopt or find a surrogate to bless us with a completed family.

Then this miracle happened and I can’t begin to tell you how much it filled my life and my heart with happiness. I would have moved mountains for this little baby. And although I know there was nothing I could do to prevent this from happening I feel as if I have failed my family my husband and myself.

I know one day I will have the perfect family wether that be by giving birth or adoption. But the sadness this has caused has been the hardest thing I have had to endure.

I am writing this today because I have felt very alone in this time and I hope none of you ever experience this sadness. But if you ever find yourself in this horrible situation know that you are not alone. So many women go through this but we are too embarrassed or sad or heartbroken to talk about it. This has not been easy for me to write but if I can help one person feel as if they are not alone it was well worth my tears.

I am very lucky to have a strong support system of family and friends who love me. But the truth is not many people know what to say or what to do to help. It’s a very hard thing to understand if you have not been through this yourself.

I love you all, thank you for continuing to be a line of love and support!

Thank you to all my friends and family who have showed me all there love and support. You mean the world to me.

Xoxo

Michelle

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Cativersary

One year ago today Tyler and I found our little Kitty outside of our apartment complex! She was cold and hungry but so loving and kind!

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She lived with us two days before we finally decided on her name! She took to us very fast and it was a relief when the vets gave her a clean bill of health!

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She won the hearts of our friends and family, and before you knew it the lonely little kitty had the love of so many people!

People may say I am crazy for taking Tonks on walks in a stroller or for driving around with her in her car seat! But she has become like my child, we are there for each other, partners in crime!

So go ahead tell me I am crazy because I probably am! But over the last year Tonks has been with us through: planning a wedding, getting married, graduating college, holidays, and moving twice! That is a lot of bonding!

So here is to the last year, and to many more with my furry friend! We love you Tonks, you will always have a forever home with us!

 

 

Just Keep Swimming 

Hello Everyone! 
For my second post today, I just want to say how excited I am to spend time with little Milania today! 

Disney is a magical place whether you are in the parks or at the pool… especially with little ones! 

She has been loving the warm weather and spending time splashing around the amazing Disney pools! 

I had to take her pic in her new Biscotti and Kate Mack Cover Up! I only wish I could get one in my size. LOL

If you have children you should definitely check out their website!  
Their products are adorable and made extremely well! Milania loves her new cover up and has received so many compliments! 

I will include a link to their website! Hope you all check them out! 
Love you guys,

Michelle

http://www.biscottiandkatemack.com

   
 

Lets Go Fly A Kite

Hello all of my favorite readers,

Happy Thursday. Today I spent the day surrounded by children! It was an exhausting day but who could complain about playing hide and seek all day and watching cartoons. But really, spending the day with kids makes you realize how amazing a child’s mind really is.

In a child’s mind the only thing that matters is laughing, playing, and just enjoying life! They don’t think twice about what come out of their mouths they just say it, They don’t worry about the time or if they have to do anything productive in a day. All they care about is fun! A child can love anyone they may just meet you but within 20 minutes you’re already best friends! A child’s life is so innocent and light-hearted that they have no worries.

Doesn’t this type of life sound nice! Well, I understand that once we grow up we need to accept responsibilities, become productive members of society, and live by a schedule that has more then nap time and play time in it. But I dare you all on your next free day to live like a child. I dare you all to go out play a game of hide and seek or tag with your friends. Schedule a good mid-day nap after a big plate of chocolate chip cookies. I want you all to live one day without thinking, just running around worrying about what fun thing you will do next.

So get out there! Host a tea party! Have a water balloon fight! and Go fly a Kite! We all deserve a day filled with nothing but fun!

Love you all

Michelle

Adding One More Miracle To My Family

Hello all you amazing readers!

First I hope you can all forgive me for my lack of posts and I do mean lack of posts!! I wanted to update you all on what has been going on in my little life. I am a Junior in college now still studying hard trying to figure out how I’ll be able to turn my passion for helping people like you all into a career. I moved into my very own home its very small but it’s wonderful because its mine! But most importantly my family welcomed a beautiful baby girl into yesterday morning. Her name is Milania and she is absolutely perfect in every way!!! Although I haven’t met her yet because I am away from my home town I am beyond excited for Saturday when Ill finally get to see her cuteness in person!! Ashley (the mother) is such a strong and inspiring woman, I know that Milania is going to grow up just the same!

In honor of Milania and Ashley I wanted to write to you all about change and love! These two things seem like they may have nothing in common but they actually have a heck of a lot in common. I’m sure you have all heard the cliche love is about compromise, but sometimes it goes more like: love is about change! which is not always a bad thing. Ashley’s life has changed forever! After yesterday she went from being a daughter, sister, cousin, friend, hairdresser, woman, ect… to being all that plus her new and most important title MOTHER!! Milania is a product of love and that love brought along this amazing baby girl and a lot of change to the life of her family! SO you can see change and love go hand and hand.

I’m sure some of you reading this are mothers or fathers and have experienced this positive and amazing change but for all of you younger ladies this may not apply to you for years! So let’s come up with a story for you all COLLEGE! I know many of my readers are in high school nd believe it or not college or jobs will happen for you eventually and you will have to face a lot of change! You will have to deal with moving away or having others move away and sometimes that is your love, this can be hard! You will not know whether you should give up or hang on. Well let me tell you, you have the answer I promise you! You are the one who needs to make that choice don’t let anyone else make that choice for you because then you are letting this other person control your life! Be strong and take your time you are young, you have time to fall in love or out of love many times. This can hurt but you will heal! I am not saying that love at a young age isn’t real because believe me I know it is just as real at 15 ten it is at 50 but  your heart will guide you and you will make the right changes for you!

I love you all your are amazing and beautiful

XOXO

Michelle

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