My Recent Struggle

Hello everyone,

I apologize that I haven’t posted in a very long time. After college life just seems to get in the way of all the little things you want to do rather then have to do.

I am writing today because I have experienced the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My husband and I found out we were pregnant with our miracle baby earlier this fall. After turning my life upside down to make sure everything would be perfect for our growing family we found out our baby had stopped developing. There was nothing we could do but cry and morn this little miracle that we are never going to meet.

I waited weeks to have a natural miscarriage because I didn’t think I could mentally deal with the idea of surgery. It turned out that my body wasn’t able to detect that the baby had stoped developing and I had to go through the procedure regardless of how hard it would be. I prayed for so long to become pregnant and I knew walking into the hospital that day that when I woke up I would no longer be pregnant. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Early last year my husband and I were told that we would have very little time to have our own child and after trying for so long it seemed like nothing would work. I finally gave up hope on having my own child, I started focusing on a career and looked forward to the day that we could afford to adopt or find a surrogate to bless us with a completed family.

Then this miracle happened and I can’t begin to tell you how much it filled my life and my heart with happiness. I would have moved mountains for this little baby. And although I know there was nothing I could do to prevent this from happening I feel as if I have failed my family my husband and myself.

I know one day I will have the perfect family wether that be by giving birth or adoption. But the sadness this has caused has been the hardest thing I have had to endure.

I am writing this today because I have felt very alone in this time and I hope none of you ever experience this sadness. But if you ever find yourself in this horrible situation know that you are not alone. So many women go through this but we are too embarrassed or sad or heartbroken to talk about it. This has not been easy for me to write but if I can help one person feel as if they are not alone it was well worth my tears.

I am very lucky to have a strong support system of family and friends who love me. But the truth is not many people know what to say or what to do to help. It’s a very hard thing to understand if you have not been through this yourself.

I love you all, thank you for continuing to be a line of love and support!

Thank you to all my friends and family who have showed me all there love and support. You mean the world to me.

Xoxo

Michelle

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Dress sizes can’t define, don’t let the world decide what’s beautiful

Hello Everyone,

I want to thank you all for the overwhelming amount of E-mails I received after my last post! They were all filled with kindness and love; I really have missed you all!!

Today I am writing to you all because of one email I got in particular! I received a very emotional and heartfelt letter from a high school sophomore.

She told me that she has always been struggling with her weight but has always considered herself to be beautiful! Until high school when people began to pick on her because of her size. She goes on to tell me that these girls have not only been embarrassing her but also have started to change how she sees herself and views her own body.

While reading this Email, I was almost in tears; no one should feel this way about themselves, and when these feelings are caused by the cruelty and ignorance of others, it is just so sad and it breaks my heart!

Now I can say that you shouldn’t listen to the cruel words of others, and only you can define how you feel about yourself, but in reality, this is almost impossible to do! Our peers play such a big part in our everyday life that it is so hard to ignore their opinions.

The best advice I can give someone in this position is to be strong, understand that you are beautiful and understand that there is a cruelty in this world that is not fair. Be the bigger person and don’t forget to put yourself first! Love yourself, know your worth and beauty, and truly love yourselves!

 

Love you all,

Michelle

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Hello World

Hello Everyone,

I must apologize for my extended absence! I must say I have been a very busy girl, most recently I have started grad school!

I was offered a full assistantship! Allowing me to go to school as well as get a great experience of working as a Teaching Assistant, enabling me to teach classes, and do some real world hands on research!

I just finished my first week, and so far I have no complaints, it is so nice being back to school.

Me and Tyler also through a celebration of our marriage, a second reception! As many of you know our wedding ceremony was planned ver quickly and even though it was fantastic it was very nice to have a bigger party that all our friends and family could attend!

It’s been a crazy and fun summer!

I am hoping to get back to you all more regularly; I am going to make an honest effort! I miss all of my web friends! Let me know if there is anything you want me to touch upon in the next few days!

Talk to you all soon!

Lots of love,

Michelle

 

Come on ladies (new Facebook challenge) 

Hello everyone,

For my second post today I will be talking to you all about the new Facebook challenge! 

It’s a challenge calling out all you ladies to share a photo of the man who makes you feel loved and special! 

It is a great reminder that we need to take time to show those we love how much they mean to us! 

I hope all you ladies who have a special man take the time to dedicate this post to them! 

All you have to do is copy and paste the message I will include bellow into your Facebook message along with a photo of that special guy! Let me know if you participate!

Love you all,

Michelle  

 

Come on ladies, the challenge is on! If you have a man in your life who helps bring balance to your world, who isn’t perfect but he’s perfect for you, who works hard and would do anything for you, who makes you laugh but drives you crazy, who is your best friend and sometimes your only friend, who you want to grow old with, who you are thankful for and truly adore, let him have a moment and put this as your status. ❤️(Copy&paste this status and add a picture!)

Bathing Suits

Hello Everyone,

Happy Tuesday! As you all know I will be leaving for my vacation to Disney World in less than two weeks! I am very excited to be getting the chance to spend a full week of no school and no work with my husband, and I am also just as excited to spend the next two weeks shopping for all the summer clothes we will need for the beautiful Florida weather.

Sundresses, sunglasses, shorts, tank tops, all the things I have missed living in the frigid cold the last few months. However, there is one down side to all this fun! Bathing suit shopping…..

No one likes it, basically it is shopping for a piece of clothing that will display all your insecurities to the world. The public beach to a  hotel pool… The places where everyone pretends to flaunt it but are really screaming with insecurity and trying to ignore the sudden low self-esteem that these swim suits generate.

It is only the first day of March and were I am from that means another month and a half of layers and chunky sweaters, a nice comfort zone! But to be going to Florida in only two weeks, trust me no northern girl is ready for the swimsuit!

But is this one stupid insecurity worth ruining a week away I have been looking forward to? Absolutely NOT!

Today I am going to go out to conquer my fears of the swim suit department, I will look at those swim suits with an intimidating smirk and realize that a piece of clothing is not worth ruining my self-esteem!  I will win the fight against swim suits!

I think it is important to love your own skin and feel confident in your body so why do I have to worry about having a six pack to enjoy 20 minutes at a hotel pool? I don’t I just need to know I am beautiful and let my confidence overpower all my insecurities.

You are all beautiful! I will update you all on Instagram tonight, if you want to see how my bath suit shopping went!

Wish Me Luck,

Michelle

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Fly with me to Neverland

Hello Everyone!

I hope you all are enjoying this gorgeous Sunday morning! 

I wanted to let you know of something that I am extremely excited about! 

In just 15 days Tyler and I will be boarding a plane to Disney world! And I’m taking you all with me!

I will be blogging everyday about what we have seen, what we have done, and  basically my blog will be filled with magic for a week! 

I will be covering everything from what rides we go on to where we plan to eat! 

I hope you all join me for a week of Disney Magic! My first post will begin the 13th with the prep and the last post will be on the 19th with our flight home! 

I’m so excited to share this adventure with all of you!

Love you all,

Michelle

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Why I Stand With Ke$ha

Hello Everyone.

Today I want to talk to you about a very sensitive and controversial topic.
In the news lately you all have heard about Ke$ha suing to be released from a 6 record contract with SONY Music. She has alleged that she was drugged and raped by producer DR Luke. A few days ago a NY judge made the ruling that Ke$ha will not be allowed out of her contract.
To me this is an extremely important issue to talk about. There are hundreds of woman and men who will fall victim of sexual abuse, assault or rape but because these topics are so taboo in our society many of them will not come forward about what happened. Ke$ha was strong and stood up she told her story to the world and in return was ordered by a judge to continue with this contract.
Ke$ha left the courthouse in tears because of this ruling. I can not imagine the disappointment and fear she felt walking out of the court house. To have a story this sensitive blasted all over the front pages. Just to lose a fight this important would be so heart breaking. My heart and prayers go out to her!
What I really want to push for all of my readers is the importance talking about topics such a rape and assault. No one should ever feel like a situation such as this is their own fault. It doesn’t matter how you are dressed or if you have been drinking. Both rape and assault are illegal and anyone who would take advantage of another person deserves to be held responsible.
You should not be embarrassed  to speak up and tell someone if something this horrible happens to you. If you know someone encourage them to tell the authorities. Your body is your own no one else has the right to do anything to you without your consent!
I hope none of you ever have to deal with something this horrible. And I apologize for having to touch upon such a sensitive topic but I feel like it is important to talk about this so more people know that it is okay to come forward if they have been victimized by anyone!
 
Love you all,
Michelle 

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Healthy Body Healthy Mind

Hello everyone,

Today I want to talk to you all about being good to your body and staying healthy! This is not a talk about how to lose weight or any crazy diets! It’s about YOU and your HEALTH!

I am an active supporter in keeping a healthy diet! It just makes you feel better. The saying you are what you eat is 100% true. You only have one body do not through away your one chance to live an exciting and healthy life.

Know I am not saying to live off of green smoothies and kale for the rest of you life (although they are good) but just make a conscious effort to feed your body good food! Choose a side salad over fries and drink water instead of soda, just these little changes can make a world of differences!

I am not a gym person, and I never have been. I feel weird being in a room packed full of sweaty people who honestly do not want to be there! and I get so bored staring at the same white walls while running on a stationary machine. Because of this, I exercise at home! I do a simple yoga video every other day and, belief me, it makes a world of difference!

I have always had problems with my back, constant visits to the chiropractor is a norm for me. But since I started doing yoga it has made a world of difference. I roll out my yoga mat in my living room and pick a workout off of Hulu ( the one in the picture is Yasmin Yoga), and I just do it I can pause it if I have to do something its perfect for me!

There are so many free exercise videos on youtube or on demand; you can pick what you want! From yoga to pilates, from boxing to weightlifting there’s no excuse why everyone can;t exercise!

I hope you all choose to keep your bodies healthy and happy.

Namaste,

Michelle

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Learning when to say no (Guest Post!)

Hi everyone! My name is Tyler and I am Michelle’s husband! Michelle isn’t feeling well today so she asked me if I wanted to step in and write a little something for you all! A little about myself: I’m 21 years old, and I’m in my last semester of my undergrad studying sociology. I also work at a residential treatment facility for juvenile delinquents as a youth counselor, and hopefully plan to work there after I graduate. In my spare time I also stream video games to Twitch! If you’re interested you can find me at twitch.tv/ttrites

Michelle said I could write about pretty much anything today, so I decided to write about when to say no. One of the clinicians at work gave me some advice the other day that really stuck with me. She said “When it’s most difficult to say no, for whatever reason, It’s probably the most important time to say it.” This advice really hit home for me because in my line of work I need to set boundaries and enforce rules that the residents don’t always agree with. But, these rules are there for a reason, and they are being enforced for their own good.

I really believe that this advice is applicable to other parts of life too. Sometimes with things like peer pressure or other factors in life, it’s really hard to say no to things that you have a bad gut feeling about. Or you might know that it’s the wrong thing to do, but feel pressured to say yes for any number of reasons. It’s times like these where you’ll thank yourself later for going with that gut feeling, and keeping yourself safe.

Now don’t get me wrong, new experiences are what makes life exciting and sometimes really interesting. But if you get yourself into a situation where you really feel strongly that you should say no, you should! Follow your gut feelings, and trust in your own judgement.

I actually really liked doing this! From what I can tell you all are lovely people and I’m so glad Michelle can write for a community that is as nice as all of you! Hope to see you again soon!

-Tyler

 

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A Single Girls Guide To a Netflix Valentines Day

Hello Everyone,

Happy Valentines Day!!

I have been single for enough Valentines day to know that sometimes this day can make the strongest of single ladies feel down. But today is just like any other days! Stay strong woman and celebrate the love you have for yourself, your family, and your friends. Today is all about love; your Valentine can be anyone including yourself! So practice self-love today and do what you want, do what makes you feel beautiful, and do what makes you feel loved!

I spent all of my single valentines days in the most cliche way. With a carton of ice cream, a can of whipped cream and some great movies!

Bellow I will list some of my suggested Netflix movies that will make any single lady feel strong and independent. So here are my top 5 movies that are streaming now!

Click on any of the gifs below to watch the trailers!

#5

The Stepford Wives- Rated PG-13

This is one of the most entertaining movies on Netflix! What better way to realize how great it is to a strong and independent woman then to watch a modern woman take down a bunch of stereotypical “housewives” straight out of the 50’s. The movie is a mixture of a chick-flick and a thriller!

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#4 Crossroads- Rated PG-13

This might be the corniest cliche 90’s teen chick flick! But it’s great! What a group of old friends reconnect over a cross country road trip! It’s a great movie about friendship and finding your inner strength! Plus its a lot of fun watching a young Brittany Spears act! tumblr_mjadgcQUN11rl8rnpo1_500.gif

#3 Mulan- Rated PG

Yes, it’s a cartoon but it is also one of the best girl power movies ever made! Mulan is no damsel in distress; she proves to the world that she is strong, and a fighter, she doesn’t need a man to save her! She is one of my heroes, and the movie is one of my favorites!

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#2 Marvel’s Jessica Jones

Okay, so it’s a TV show and not technically a movie, but it shows how a girl can kick butt! If you are looking for a binge-worthy TV show, I highly suggest jumping into this one! It’s all about girl power! Trust me Jessica Jones is tough!

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#1 Legally Blonde-Rated PG-13

Well, I am sure you all know the story of the dumb blonde who decides to go to law school because of the boy who got away! Then find her true self and who she was meant to be! This is one of the best feminist films I know it’s funny, smart, and witty! Watch a very lost girl become a powerful and intelligent woman!

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So stroll over to netflix.com and catch up on some girl power! Remember you all are beautiful and deserve the to feel that way every day, even valentines day! Love yourself today!!

Love you all,

Michelle  ❤